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It was the Christmas of 2009, and Steam had a daily sale on games. I didn't need to login to check them out, or buy any games, for that matter, but I'm weak-willed, and I did. In fact, I bought quite a few games. It was a bonanza for games I always wanted to play but never purchased. I just love games. I like the story element of games, the role-playing, the strategy, the simulation, the action, the everything. There's not really a genre of game that I haven't played and have a favorite. ...

Today my ex calls .... asking my mother if she and i have been to my daughters grave... because she put flowers out in a pale with rocks.. (flows in the rocks so they dont blow away) and... Its gone, so is the pale..
On my daughters birthday, i bought flowers and 2 baloons to put on her grave. One was i love you princess, the other happy bday baby.
One balloon went missing the other... shredded and laying on the ground... the very next day.
Low and behold my ex's stuff she ...

Well as many of you know my step father passed away a few weeks ago. Well my father calls me last week to say he is coming back to Florida and would like to see me after he settlement is done. I have not seen my father in 31 years.

Well today I get an email I was not expecting. I got an email from a man who appears to be my son Matthew's stepfather. Now I am in a sense following my father's footsteps were I have not seen my son since he was 2. Part of that was my choice.
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When I saw Tommy for the first time in a couple months for Thanksgiving, I was shocked at the weight loss Tommy had. He had lost 80lbs. Christmas came and he lost another 30lbs. He also looked like he had aged 15 years. He told me then that he would not be taking chemo. He was feeling good, but the look from my mother said it all. She told me less then 6 months was the prognosis. Then we found out that his main vein to the liver was being compressed and that a stint needed to be put in. My mother ...

I hope Warz forgives me for posting a blog but it is 2 am and I am awake in the hospice unit, and I need to share. Call it therapy if you like.

This might be a tad lengthy, but I have a ton of thoughts on my mind. My mother is a very strong woman. I know a lot of people say that, but it is true. My mother has been a nurse for as long as I have been alive. She was a single mother for the first 8 years of my life. She had two failed marriages that both my father, then my first step father ...